- 5 years ago
Hi. I’m new here, and I wanted to share my dispair since I can’t get any support anywhere else.
I’ve been with my boyfriend for 8 years, and living together for 2 years, and he is the kind of guy that daydreams about us being married and having kids, and I used to love it and love to talk with him about all those stuff, but now, and as the years went by without him proposing I stated to feel sad and resentfull about the wait.
If he knows I’m the woman he wants to spend his life with, then why does he propose? I’m a strong independent woman, I have a full time job, I support him and love him every single day, and his delay is making me pull away from him, doubting his feelings about me and us, and just makes me feel like crap.
I want to get married, I’m ready and i’v tell him that, he thinks he are both too young in the mid twenties, but seriously? I want to have kids before 30, and that is not too far away… I don’t want to miss my shot, or delay my own life because of his delay in proposing, so he can, some years from now, decide that I’m not the one afterall and move away with another person, where I’m stuck childless and alone.
I’ve told him that, and he thinks I’m being silly and that it will happen… but seriously, I start to question that 🙁 He says that it will never be more the 2 years, but 2 years it’s a timeline too long in my opinion, is not like we are together for months, it’s 8 years!
I find myself crying when I’m alone, and feeling like a total waste 🙁 Dispite him being such a lovely and carying guy. I’m thinking that if he doesn’t propose this year, I’m gonna walk away…