I had a lot of reasons for wanting to go natural. Even though I didn’t succeed…
First of all, I think labour should be a lot of hard work. Lots of other worth-while things in life are. Most of the things I appreciate most, I had to work really hard for. Childbirth was not something I expected to be easy.
Secondly, I don’t like putting things in my body if I don’t have to (medically). I was scared of the “cascade of interventions.<br /> Of course, I will do what is needed, but if I don’t have to do it, I won’t. I had a lot of complications with my pregnancy which required surgeries while pregnant… so everything involved with that really freaked me out. I had no control over it, and I didn’t like that. I also wanted to give me and my baby the best start possible in terms of bonding. No, epidurals and c-sections won’t ruin the bond, but it can really interefere with things for some people. I wanted to breastfeed and recover with as little interferance as possible, and to me, trying to do things as naturally as possible was how I could do that.
I am not overly confident as well, that we know all the risks to some of the things we use for childbirth pain management and induction…and I am terrified of a c-section.
When it came to birth, I didn’t want to be induced, but had to be due to my complications. Luckily, all it took was gel for labour to get started. I tried gas and nubain for pain releif, as my labour was progressing SUPER fast. I didn’t realize this however. I just thought that if I felt this much pain at 3-4 cm, that there was no way I’d make it to 10. When I opted for the epi, they didn’t check me until after it was placed, and I was at 10cm. Doh!
I was happy that I got to experience most of my labour and birth (the epi was turned off as soon as it went in) pretty naturally. The experience itself was very intensely painful, but I felt so strong afterwards for going through that…and I feel really good when my hustband tells me how great I did. I guess I found the experience empowering.
I’m now expecting my 2nd child, and hoping to do things 100% naturally this time…but even if I have the same experience as last time, I’d be ok with that!