- 6 years ago
- Wedding: May 2013
I want to start out by saying I have the most amazing mother. She took care of me all my life. Never once complained. I knew my Dad. He lived about 9 hours away. We saw him 2-3 times a year and he called every Friday. . When I was 14 he passed away of cancer. I have missed him ever since.
I have always felt like he was watching me. But lately, I don’t feel him there. Maybe he led me to my Fiance and was able to move on. Who knows…. but planning this wedding without him makes me sad. I would love to just talk to him. I wish I could bounce ideas off of him. I wish he could walk me down the isle. Fiance has a strong family. His mom and dad are wonderful. But it breaks my heart that my Dad isn’t here. It is a hole I can’t seem to fill. I feel bad saying anything to my Mom because I would seem ungrateful, I can’t say anything to Fiance because he doesn’t understand the loss and there is just no one out there that seems to understand.
Thanks for listening… I wish I could have him here… more than anything.