- 5 years ago
- Wedding: June 2013
I spent a lot of time worrying about how I was going to look on my wedding day. I never wanted to be a fat bride…I mean, really – who does?…but unfortunately, life threw a curveball at me and I just didn’t find myself with the time or energy to really focus on my health & fitness routine in the 4-6 months before the wedding. I worried about what my arms would look like (one of my most dreaded body parts), I worried about my teeth, I worried about my face looking fat….you name it, I obsessed on it.
Yet when I woke up on that Saturday morning, I honestly didn’t think about it once. Not any of it. All I could think about was how excited I was to marry my very best friend and to commit ourselves to each other in front of everyone that we love. Frankly, I spent more time worrying about rain on the big day than I did about what I looked like. Society puts a lot of pressure on us ladies to be PERFECT on that day and it is really hard not to succumb to that pressure. I can tell you that despite the fact that I was not a size 6, did not have perfect arms or perfect teeth, I felt absolutely beautiful on June 1st. I was surrounded by love and support from anyone who has ever meant anything to me and the look on the face of my husband when he saw me coming up the aisle told me that in his eyes, I was perfect and always would be. Which made all my doubts and worries simply disappear into thin air.
I’ve been married for almost 5 days now and I’ve been lucky enough to get some photos back already from guests and a few teasers from our photographer. While I still see some of my dreaded physical flaws in these photos, it’s funny that they don’t bother me at all. All I really see is how incredibly happy I was and that I was completely in the moment.
So for anyone else who might one day walk this same path – please believe that it doesnt matter what the size of your dress is or what the number on the scale says or even if you’ve got flabby body parts….let the love you feel in your heart also carry over to how you feel about yourself because we are all beautiful when we love and allow ourselves to BE loved.
See? Happy trumps fat every time!