- 5 years ago
- Wedding: November 2013
My Mum wants to go on holiday with me and my younger brother he is only 13. My Fiance will be away with his work and she thinks it will be good to go away (even though she has just got back from Minorca) she wants to go to Cyprus for a week in September.
Originally I was up for going becuase I thought it would do me good but then I told her I couldn’t go because I have dress alterations to be done and I already booked the appointments and the seamstress will be on holiday so I don’t have alot of choice. Also I can’t really afford to go due to wanting to save money and with paying for the honeymoon we are having. I also thought since she has just been away she wouldn’t miss out so much with not going to Cyprus.
So even though I told her I couldn’t go and we could perhaps make a trip next year she has phoned to say she has found a hotel and I have to change my dress appointments. I know she wants to go away with me because we used to go away alot and I think she feels before I get married it would be nice to have a mother daughter holiday. She seems to be ignoring me saying I can’t go.
I also don’t do well when Fiance is away with his job and I like to stay connected to the Internet and my phone and always need signal and 3G and when I am out of my comfort zone I get bad anxiety. Fiance said if it were him he would go but then I also have to sort of put my dress first and get it all sorted. But I think also this would be my main issue going away so even if I didn’t have to sort my dress out I still wouldn’t go because of not having the safety net of the Internet and my phone.
Should I call the seamstress and ask if she can see me earlier and actually go away or do I just stick to not going? And then I feel mean telling my Mum I don’t want to go because I don’t want her to think I am being selfish and not wanting to do things with her. And I feel I can’t go away because of all the anxiety and this deep down might be the real reason I wont go. I suggested she comes stay with me for a few days but that didnt appeal to her as much as sunny Cyprus.
I guess I just actually don’t know what to do.