- Miss Fish
- 7 years ago
- Wedding: December 2011
I wasn’t sure whether to label this as “college,” “long-distance,” or “military,” but all of them are equal factors in all of this. Sorry that this is a ton of backstory on my situation… Thank you to anyone who continually puts up with the novels I write.
My husband is currently in bootcamp for the Marines. He goes to the School of Infantry at the beginning of may, and will receive his first duty station near the beginning of July. We have no idea where this will be.
I have a substantial scholarship to a very good, very small liberal arts college in Ohio. I like it here, for the most part. There are obviously things I would change, but I like the professors and I find the classes to be challenging (in a good way).
I love the friends I have here, but they are all at a very different place in their lives than I am. This isn’t to say anything negative towards them; they’re all 19-22, and doing normal 19-22 year old things. I enjoy being around them. But they don’t really get that I can’t always go out with them or buy things, because I’m a grown-ass lady and I have bills to pay.
As much as I know I have going for me, I’m not happy. I don’t care about school work the way I used to. I sleep all day and barely eat. Logically, I know that this is depression, but I’m sort of refusing to acknowledge that because it’s not anything that medication is going to magically fix. I KNOW why I’m sad, and it has everything to do with not talking to my husband at all for the past 7 weeks. I know it’s a part of the lifestyle, and that even if I do live closer to him I’ll have to go long periods of being in a LDR, but I dont know if I want to do it for 2 years.
The more I go through this, the less I want to do this for the next 2 years. Our plan was for me to graduate and then move to wherever he is… but WHY?! I don’t think my college is really offering me anything that I couldnt find at one of 50,000 other universities in the US. I would miss the friends and family here, but we have technology. Between Skype and facebook and cell phones and vacations, I wouldn’t lose touch with the people who really mattered to me.
So bees, would you do it? Would you pack up your things and follow your heart for love and adventure, or do the sensible thing and be miserable but graduate on time?