- 7 years ago
- Wedding: November 2012
…and I’m still a waiting bee
My So and I have an engagement time line in place which was set back in Nov/December. This timeline was created by him after a couple of “where are we heading” conversations and he said he was ready to give me a time line of 6 months (June 2011)
The reason I knew it wasnt going to happen before then was because a few weeks ago he asked me what I wanted for my birthday and I was really honest and said a ring.
I explained that I know we have the timeline so I’m not expecting it to happen on my birthday but I said I’d rather you take the money you would spend on birthday gifts and put it towards my ring fund. He said that he thought that was a good idea and a fair deal, so that was agreed.
So, yesterday was my birthday and while I knew it wasn’t going to happen then, there was a bit of me that was holding out some hope that it was all planned and he was going to super suprise me with it. When I opened the small gift he got me I said thanks etc but he knew I was a bit disappointed and said “its not long now, I’ve only got 3 months left!”
When he reminds me of his timeline it makes me feel better because I’m reassured that he’s not forgotten it or is trying to get out of it, but I also found out yesterday that his company is making more redundancies.
I found the formal letter from the company and he said he wanted to tell me after my birthday so it didn’t ruin the day but we ended up talking about it a lot. Of course I’m behind him whatever the outcome, and we’ll work it out accorording to what happens, a part of me is now worried that engagement talk will be pushed the back of our minds if we have to work out how to finance living day to day and I know thats selfish on my part but I’ll be gutted if that timeline becomes nul and void because of circumstances he cannot contrrol.
So a weird waiting weekend for me. No ring, but a nice feeling of reassurance that he’s aware of the clock ticking on the timeline but also the icky worry of redundancy.