- 6 years ago
- Wedding: October 2012
So I wont go into too many details here simply because part of this post is about someone else’s life, not mine.
I’m scared! I didn’t think this news would affect me the way it has but I think about it allll the time now. Someone I know suddenly fell really ill a few days ago, it came out of no where and really shook me. She had been getting these really bad headaches, then one night she just lost it. Her body gave out on her and she just seemed like she was sleeping, all she does now is sleeps. They didn’t know what was wrong, but tests came back saying she had been having mini strokes and the last one was a big one. but that’s enough about her. I hope strongly for her recovery because I need her back at my job and so does everyone else.
My health is not in a good place right now. I have issues with my blood sugar and my thyroid. My ovaries are failing, some days I feel my whole body is just giving up on me. I have these headaches too, her and I even discussed and joked about being headache twins and shared our remedies for dealing with them (because pain pills do not help!) I need to go back to the doctor, but after the last time and the news I got, I am just avoiding it. I dont want to hear that I’ve just gotten worse. I need to shape up, get my head out of my ass and stop drowning in pity over it and take care of myself. This really put the fear of god in me…but fear isn’t motivating, it’s debilitating. it’s so much easier to avoid these things. *sigh* And with my grandmas cancer…I thought it would motivate me to shape up too, and it just caused depression. I am bull headed, but in the wrong ways. I dont have the will power to resist the things that are causing me to feel so badly. Sorry ladies, my posts as of late have been on the down side. It will all work out 🙂